Future

So exams are coming closer, and whats so amazing about it, is that i can almost see the beginning of my future... not that i know what my future will hold, just that i can see it! and what a sight for sore eyes... something different, something accomplished, something i'm looking forward to. But i could be wrong, i could be as far as possible on the right path to my future, but in the end, everything in this world is worth learning.

You just have to give it your best shot, and cross your fingers, and see where it leads you.

Long Time

Its actually been a really long time since i've vented out on this thing. Although i dont really need to vent at the moment because im not angry, i will say a few things. Today has been a really stressful day. nevermind today, the weekend entirely. Trying to finish two isu's as well as study for a quiz/test. I've never known how much i can do once i put my mind to it, and some motivation and discipline, but ive come to surprise myself. I completed everything that needed to be done, and i am proud of myself for that. Now that today ended, a load of stress came off my shoulders and all that was left was relief.

I went to PJ's today, and i have to say, i didnt notice how much ive missed him until he held me in his arms. We've been spending so much time together lately, and im not getting sick of him at all :P, im actually loving it even more every day. The only thing that im afraid of is if we ever need to let go of each other, how will i be able to? he's like my other half, he's like my oxygen, how will i ever be able to breathe? And reading this over to myself, i got kind of scared for a moment, because should someone be so attached to someone else? especially considering our age? And if one isnt so attached to someone else... and they feel that they cannot open up for the fact that they are scared of committement... doesnt seem like its true love, so maybe i am right to get so attached. If it IS true love, why should one hold back... on anything? In the end if something should go wrong, then at least the experience is there, and that we took the chance to try to make something work, so the efforts would be there as well. So it wouldnt be for nothing. And knowing us, we will always be friends anyway. I guess i really do believe in the "everything happens for a reason" theory. Maybe im just over analyzing it. But thats what humans do, no? analyze everything we do, whether it be for comfort, of just curiosity. But thats another subject.

This weekend, Sharlene came back, and although i didnt spend a lot of time with her, i really felt awesome being with her again, and it felt just like old times, ya know, the whole catching up on stories, whether they're stupid, or really important, its just the notion of one another being there to listen. She'll be coming back in April, and shes staying here for good. She wants to transfer to UoT, and i think thats awesome, but i also think thats a not such a good choice as well. I hope she'll like it there, but if she doesnt? is it worth her having to transfer back here, and not enjoy the "supposed to be" amazing university life?
I kind of feel like Carrie, analyzing everything thats been going on, but maybe i should do that more often, considering i want to be a psychologist... makes sense, no?

Anyway i think i spilled most of it out, whatever was left behind, didnt have much importance, just minor details.

I'll write another time
Goodnight World.