I dont believe in luck, i believe in fate.

My time away from him has made me ponder about so many things, about everything, and just about anything. There's so many things that i dont say to you at the moment, that i think of after i have had the opportunity to. And i think of so many things to tell you, but by the time i get the chance to, i keep on forgetting. So im going to say them on here...

There's so many things that i absolutely love about you that i dont tell you often enough, but dont you worry, in time i'll be able to tell you this everyday and every time i talk to you.

I love how you pay so much attention to me, something i dont ever have to ask for, its just given to me. And I love how you make me food when im hungry at your house, or grab me a drink when im thirsty... or even when im not thirsty at all, you just do it out of curtesy, like always. I absolutely adore the way you look over at me sometimes, and give me that wink of yours, the one that always screams out "you're my everything" especially when we're with our friends, and i'm a couple feet away. ALTHOUGH i dislike when you are beside me and want to tell me something, you start poking at me, and continually do so, even after you have my complete and undivided attention... i still think its great, and i wouldnt have it any other way.

I know the way you laugh, and i love how every time you do, you turn to me as if to say "did you just see that? thats the funniest shit ever" or how you even laugh, when the joke's not even funny... still I MYSELF laugh, because you are contagious... I love it. i can replay the sound of your laugh, or your voice, any time i want to.

I can tell when you arent telling the truth, you dont lie to me, but im talking about those moments where i'll ask a question such as "did you just sit on my purse?" which you did cus i could see it underneath you... "no, its right there! i didnt sit on it look!" your eyes go side to side to avoid contact, and you lose your train of thought and look like you dont know what to say... wow, i know every aspect of you. Yet everyday its always something different about you that makes me love you even more. Everybody changes, even slightly, and you can never fully know a person, and thats why i love being with you... although i know your every next move, or exactly what you'll say, its yet so different every time.

I know the way you eat, or drink, i know exactly the movements you do when you have to stretch... or how you get those puppy eyes when you're stomach starts to bother you, and you curl up into a ball and start to groan about it. Every time that happens i wish for your pain to go away, i just dont tell you.

I know all your favourite movies, your favourite foods, drinks, and alcoholic beverages. I know your favourite hobbies, what books interest you, your style in clothing, your shows, your fast food restaurant, the colours you like, your favourite music... i know. And i love it how if any one of our friends needs to know something about you... they can come to me and ask. I love our inside jokes that nobody else knows about, the ones in public especially, the way we turn towards each other and burst out in a histerical laugh and everyone around us seems so confused. I love your sense of humour, you're always good for a laugh... trust me, i still laugh at EVERYTHING you say... i just do it when you dont pay attention.

You sing off key... to be honest... but i love it anyway, i dont pay attention to the singing, just the expressions on your face, the happy careless ones that make everything okay.

And you are soooo incredibly clumsy!! and always end up hurting me, but not on purpose of course... but you're MY clumsy love, and its okay cus you get frustrated enough with your own self that i dont need to be with you really... i just like to overexaggerate.

I love how i can be your teddy bear at night. Your natural tendency to turn towards me and grab onto me extremely tight without you being aware of it. It makes me feel euphoric. You make me feel in a complete state of euphoria, i just dont tell you, and im sorry that i havent.

I can call you at any moment of the day, even if its 3am, and tell you just about anything, and you wouldnt get mad that id call you so late... you wouldnt get mad even if i just called and said that i just wanted to hear your voice, although i never have called you at 3am, i know you too well, and you wouldnt care, you'd be happy that you're talking to me, even if i was with you a couple hours before.

I love how you are so intelligent, how i always have something to learn from you, how you know so much more than the average person at age 19, although you probably wouldnt agree, but thats because you're modest. You know so much about things that i wouldnt have taken an interest if it werent for you bringing them up!

And your hugs... my security blanket, my shelter from everything bad that could have happened that day, or even for the entire month, could simply be pushed aside, and total relaxation takes control, pure, and complete oneness with you, another state of mind.

"how do you feel?" "safe. When im with you i feel so safe" - Garden State.

And your kisses? lets just say im more than happy that there's an endless supply of those.

where would i be without your support? the way you always have the right things to say to make me feel better about any decision i have to make, without you to tell me all those things, i dont know if i'd make it through another day staying sane. So thank you in advance, and please dont stop supporting me, it means the world.

and i know how you usually dont like to talk about the future, and that there's no need to anyway, because we should be living in the moment... but i cant help it, when im lying next to you, and i see you stare off into space, when you dont know that im looking at you... I see you're thinking about something, and i pay attention to every detail, every beautiful contour of your face, and your really really cute curls, i cant help but think "i would spend the rest of my life here with you in this moment" absorbing the positive energy in the air, creating a world of happiness for the time being. I just adore you, 100%... and i always will.

I'm sorry i never told you all this often enough, but that will change.
So i raise up my glass and toast to many years of spontineity, of happy laughs, and emotional cries, of random moments, of late nights watching movies, of affection, and growing in every experience that we had, and will have... all this, i wouldnt have chosen anybody else to go through it other than you.

My love, my world, my angel without wings. All this for you.
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