Update.

I believe things will work out okay.
Although nothing is certain, and with many complaints of my own about the moving situation, my brother decided that he would like to live in peel village, which is closer to shopppers than i could have ever asked for. BUT on one condition, if the houses in mississauga have better prices, then we are moving there, in that case, i will have to figure out what to do, and where to go.
On another note, the money difference from this house we live in now will be divided between my sister, my brother and myself, giving me money for university which is a miracle of GOD because let me tell you, i was stressing about that.

But all along my friends were there for me, Lesley called me from work to tell me that i could stay at her place a few nights a week if i need to go to school or whatever, and PJ was supportive and optimistic as always which helped.

I started my new job at the customer service gift wrapping booth on wednesday, and to be honest i like it!! just lately i dont know whats been wrong with me because yesterday i had to work at sunrise and i thought i started at 6, but i actually started at 5, and today i was late for my new job. Again i thought i started at 6, but i actually started at 5... i need to get used to the whole two jobs idea.

Anyway, i should try to get some sleep because i work sat and sunday. actually, i work 8 days in a row... yay big paycheque for me

-Paola

I hate today.

So i come home from the mall at around 10 ish. Creep up to my room and go on my comp, about a half hour later, my mom strolls in my room, claiming that i should clean up my room, because the real estate agent is coming to my house tomorrow to put a price on my house... out of nowhere this comes as a shock to me, and im confused, i dont know what to feel... thanks for nothing!
It is MY life as well, thanks so much for not letting me have a say in anything that goes on in it. because i LOVE just leaving homes and leaving my life behind, like i had to do about 4-5 times in the past...
this time i refuse, i refuse to leave, whether i have to struggle to survive, or to adjust in somebody else's home, i refuse to leave my life behind one more time. With all the strength in me i will try with every bone in my body to fight this, and i will not give up, and i will not surrender.
I am now old enough to make my own decisions, and if they think they can just make them for me, without even my slightest consent, they better be careful because they have another thing coming at them.
This battle will not be lost.
They chose to start it, now they'll have to put up with the rest of it.
The battle, im afraid, has just begun.

Bored.

I am currently at school, where there is nothing to do at 4th period. I have to create this page that contains junior, intermediate and senior band for yearbook, and i must say, it is really boring, and i have to gather all these pictures and info from the practices. that means i have to stay after school:S

I was waiting for PJ's arrival at second period, but he did not show. neither did he show at third, and i dont know if he is in calculus at the moment, but i believe he must have stayed at home.

I have an optometrist appointment today at 4:30 pm at shoppers world, and i am looking forward to purchasing contact lenses for the first time. i wonder how that will go, and i hope that contacts are easy to put in considering im sensitive with my eyes.

time is almost out, so i have to log out of this school computer and i will write something else later.
-Paola

Lyrics

I was listening to this song on the way home, and realized how much i liked it... i'll post it

Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road

The only one that I have ever known

Don't know where it goes

But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street

On the Boulevard of broken dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me

My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I'm walking down the line

That divides me somewhere in my mind

On the border line of the edge

And where I walk alone

Read between the lines What's fucked up and everythings all right

Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive

And I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me

My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I walk alone, I walk a...I walk this empty streetOn the Boulevard of broken dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me

My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

Till then I walk alone!

Meh

Nothing Special is going to happen today, although i am looking forward to my work's christmas party that they're holding in toronto.
i've never been to my own work xmas party, so im wondering what i've been missing.
i woke up today at 12:45, and my first thought was PJ.
an automatic thought that usually pops up in my head everyday.
i should be doing my homework, chemistry that is, since im already getting a good mark, i dont want to ruin it now.
i'll write later.
-Paola

My First Blog EVER!

Well, this is my first blog ever, and i have nothing really important to say...
I only found out about this blog site from my boyfriend PJ, and I thought it would have been pretty neat to post stuff when I'm bored and have nothing to do at home.
Today was okay, worked at Sunrise and it was busy. Although sometimes I don't really like to work with my boss, because it seems that every time he has a problem with someone, he doesn't have the courage to tell them to their face, and instead he vents out to other employees about it, so I usually leave my shift wondering if anything has been said about me behind my back, or if something will be said about me in the near future.
I'm not doing anything in particular, actually, I'm at PJ's house and posting this blog while he's in the shower... although I should be in there with him ;)
I have to say, I don't know what I would do without him. He teaches me so many things, and I appreciate it, even though I usually look like I'm not interested in a lot of what he talks about. Love him to death.
Anyway, I'll be posting every once in a while, especially when I feel I need to vent, or get my feelings out.
But until then!
"Parting is such sweet sorrow. That I shall say goodnight until it be morrow."
chau!
-Paola